I have a question for you. Are you serious??? ARE YOU SERIOUS???? Please stop degrading yourself with all this c**p. Do something that your children will be proud of. Are they going to look back and say, “Wow, our mom did something with her life”, or are they going to say, ” I can’t believe she did that.” Get a real job. It doesn’t seem like you’ve even attempted a real job. I don’t know. I’m not in your situation, but you kinda put yourself in this situation.